{ forewords }
someday, somewhere
till then, i will cherish what i have
{ past unravels }
anger always catch us unprepared,
resulting in regrets
never take someone seriously
if she saying it in a fit of anger
for her head, would not have been functioning properly
who can really tell from right to wrong?
yes, some things are blatantly so
yet, many considerations render it less obvious
we cannot exactly pinpoint who's at fault
so i guess, its best to let it go
-xiuyun
home rifts
tomorrow, it will be fine.
Monday, February 6
8:02 PM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
{ past unravels }
so basically, CNY was basically a good break from SG
and back to the routine, though unwilling,
my hopeful, happy disposition seems to have came back as well!
LOL
maybe, my destress pills are taken best when i read fiction books to my liking
my guess is this:
As books tells me the lives that other people lead, bringing me to someway faraway, for short periods of time, my minds are allowed to take short breaks
hence, my overall well-being is better, allowing my emotions to take an upturn
-xiuyun
SO CONCLUSION IS:
read books people! (:
Friday, February 3
1:59 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
{ past unravels }
CNY visiting also comes to an end.
my relatives here, i think i BAI NIAN already.
so i guess my next big thing wouldddd beee....
sigh, march holidays (which is like so so so so faraway!)
plus, i got so many tests
and idontwishtosufferanymoretraumas.
atleast,notforhistory
:/
sighhh.
anyway, well, actually, there's valentine's day that i should look forward to, since its not only a day for lovers, but for friends.
ohwells, just to update you guys, if you're still lagging behind, by like dont-know-how-many-yearssss, my insecure feelings have also evaporated away
straightened out my thoughts. (someday,some morning) *cant remember when already. LOL
anyway, back to the topic, i am not looking forward to valentine, basically, is just the fact that, the day will be so filled with "LOVE" that i might, actually, fear it.
fear of how little my events might be, fear of how boring that day will be, fear of the "LOVE" atmosphere that further exemplifies my isolation.
in any case, i just hope that my sensitive nerves will not be so alert, and take in every piece of information around me and dampen my spirits.
afterall, my goal of this year has been pretty much set. *by teachers, family and myself.*
A levels.
so i cant afford to lose sight of it anyway (be it due to personal emotions and any encounters)
i think i'll just have gotta postpone them all
-xiuyun
Laments
1:55 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
{ past unravels }
anyways, finished reading the book "Memoirs of a geisha"
OMG, definitely engaging and i was so engrossed that, on the way to penang/ipoh, i finished it :D
KEKE.
should readdddddd~ i recommmenddd!
(:
by the way, its already school, for like a week or so.
the heavy feelings and all seemed to have left me alone
SO GOOD for me (:
haha.
basically, towards this year, my wavering hopes seem to have found a pillar of strength and support.
(from family and friends i think) otherwise, my inner self wont be so peaceful and serene. (it isnt being cynical and kept shooting each hopeful sentence my mind comes across)
so i guess things are working out, these few days.
my life is going alright, i suppose...
-xiuyun
may these days last! :D
1:46 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
{ past unravels }
Here in malaysia, I entertained different ideologies.
My sis's arguments that the trip is a waste
and my dad's subtle and disagreeing stance.
I don't really feel much towards this trip.
But I guess I agree to both pov.
In singapore, I get to enjoy those new year movies that I love to watch.
In malaysia, its like a last, final getaway I could ever have before my nightmare becomes a reality.
But either way, the result is already fixed. I am here in malaysia right now. So I doubt anymore arguments make much sense.
Rather, I should be contented with the things are.
In any case, there are many types of riches in the world.
While some (many, actually) delight in having money, clothes... as those can bring out the differences in status/class, ie. prove that one is rich.
Yeeeessss. this is one defination of the word 'rich' but.... i think there are other "riches" in this world that we should pursue. Those arent my currency for life.
and by broadening my own defination, i think i am quite a rich kid.
HOHO.
You see, I have many friends, whom will support me and view me in the best light possible
Also, I have the best family I could ever have. They cultivate me, tried to bring the best out of me. And at the same time, they gave me the best material and emotional support.
My all rounded life, credits are due largely to them.
-xiuyun
At this moment, I am in bliss.
As I have already owned, the best of both worlds.
12:22 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
{ past unravels }
Saturday is a travelling dayyyy.
The whole day, I sat on the bus, towards my destination: Ipoh.
Right now, with the sun rising, and the night clears to become a brand new day, I am in ipoh, in one of their hotels, using their wifi.
Keke.
Wearing outfits that, in my pov, are pretty, together with my new pair of shoes, I ought to count my blessing already.
-xiuyun
I shall enjoy today as if my last.
Luckygalx.
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Sunday, January 22
7:51 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun
{ past unravels }
Friday's eat together for 6N was awesome!
It was great fun, cooking in seoul garden, devouring my favorite kimchi and gossiping away with my classmates.
We had class outings before, but it had failed. ):
I feel so useless, now to think of it.
Anyway, glad that 6N had such a happy start to the year of dragon.
May our class pull through this year's hurdles and come out with satisfactory grades for As. (:
-xiuyun
Had wondered what its like to be other classes
But always, felt lucky to be here, as I met many friends who share my frequency and wavelength...
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7:45 AM //
Out of the darkness and into the sun